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Today is a special day for me as it is my sweet daughter Hannah's birthday. 21 years ago today, I gave birth to her and then watched her struggle in the NICU for the next two weeks. After those two weeks, I placed her in the arms of her new parents. As many of you know, last year, we were reunited when she was able to find me, in part due to my blogging on her birthday for the last several years.
If you are interested in reading any of those posts, you can find them here.
My Hannah is the most amazing person. She is super beautiful and smart and kind. She has the spirit of the Lord with her. She has two families that love her with all of their hearts. I thank my Heavenly Father often for allowing her to have had such a great life and for guiding her towards me. It truly was a miracle to be reunited.
This day used to be so sad for me. When I started this blog, I decided to do a special tribute post to her each October 16th. But other than those days, I pushed my pain and grief away and tried to bury it. I had an empty hole in my heart that never was healed -- those who say time heals all wounds probably have never given a child up for adoption. And if I am being quite honest here, the hole, while smaller, still has not completely gone away. I don't know that it ever will because I will never get those 20 years back with my daughter.
However, I rejoice in the fact that my sweet Hannah reached out and wanted to find me. I rejoice that I have gotten to see her a few times this last year. I rejoice that she appears to be healthy and happy. I rejoice when I think of her as a grown woman now. For so long, I pretty much only pictured her as the infant that I placed in another woman's arms.
Well, if you've made it this far, I thank you. I'll leave you with the card I made for Hannah. Hannah, if you are reading this, I have loved you from the moment I found out I was pregnant with you. I love you dearly and wish you the happiest of birthdays.